Well, it turned out all I needed was a good dinner with friends to brighten my day up!
Delicious whole chicken as a family of students all sharing the same troubles with school, but being able to share our joys through it as well.
Now I'm able to look at things with a whole new light.
I got accepted into UWaterloo Orchestra as Pic.
Pic only.
At first I was sad because I like playing flute, I'm only going to get to play 5% of the time, and the only reason I'm there is because of my instrument.
I'm not sad anymore. I'm glad
This means that I'm the assistant, helping everything run smoothly and getting into the good books of the conductor.
It also means I'm the flute understudy/sub
Instead of learning just my part
I'm learning all of them incase someones away!
And I get to play with some other flautists who are obviously more talented then me. Probably due to never having lessons on my part when most others that applied had lessons for at least 4 years now. Still, I'm hoping to improve a ton!
Waiting for things isn't that bad, as long as it doesn't detract from the day. Rather than waiting for things to get harder, I relish in the simplicity of the day in order to enjoy some small luxuries I might not get later; namely free time to sit back and watch a movie.
One may turn into 3, because I can't choose between Spirited Away, Princess Mononoke, and Monty Python's Quest for the Holy Grail.
So I'll watch EVERYTHING.
Or, we'll watch everything. I'll get some friends over, make some snacks, and we'll all have fun.
*sigh*
I love having awesome friends. I often forget how important they are to me, even though I wouldn't be where I am now, nor half the person I am now, without them
Wednesday, 19 September 2012
Just another day...
I don't know what it is, but university just has me down a bit.
Completely un-motivated.
Like every day is the same as the next
Going through menial work
Menial lessons
Every day
And it's only been a week and a half.
Yes, I'm learning new things.
Menial things
Things that I can clearly see why we're learning and the applications
But for some reason things that don't capture my attention
Nor my desire to learn more.
Sure I have awesome professors
They make me laugh
They make me smile
They teach everything so well
I just don't know what it is.
I can't find motivation to do... anything with more than 50% of my effort.
*sigh*
Maybe it's just tiredness speaking through me.
Tiredness and anticipation, as if everything I'm desiring is in the future, just out of my grasp, with no idea when it'll be there
And the anticipation takes so much of my mind that I can't truly appreciate the world around me now.
...
I'm still waiting to see if I made the Uwaterloo Orchestra.
I'm still waiting for this course to get harder and more demanding
I'm still waiting for the MLP S3 release date to be announced
(On that note, I'm also waiting for the UW group to get their act together and do something)
And it seems looking forward is giving me tunnel vision, preventing me from seeing the beauty of now.
Even though I've tried to break it. I've tried to sit and enjoy the summer (almost fall)'s day, or the taste of a sweet pastry from the C&D, but I just can't find it. All I can find are the Calc problems that need solving, and the mindless and unchallenging Linear Algebra textbook that calls me. Even the Chem isn't that hard, so my mind finds no reason to pull itself together.
I don't know. I'll keep looking for something to brighten my day up. Give me a reason to smile and live each day like the last, loving the fresh moment of now rather than longing for the rewarding moment of sometime later. But until I find that I'm just gonna be here, doing things at 50%, wondering where everything started to fall apart to reverse-engineer this downness.
Completely un-motivated.
Like every day is the same as the next
Going through menial work
Menial lessons
Every day
And it's only been a week and a half.
Yes, I'm learning new things.
Menial things
Things that I can clearly see why we're learning and the applications
But for some reason things that don't capture my attention
Nor my desire to learn more.
Sure I have awesome professors
They make me laugh
They make me smile
They teach everything so well
I just don't know what it is.
I can't find motivation to do... anything with more than 50% of my effort.
*sigh*
Maybe it's just tiredness speaking through me.
Tiredness and anticipation, as if everything I'm desiring is in the future, just out of my grasp, with no idea when it'll be there
And the anticipation takes so much of my mind that I can't truly appreciate the world around me now.
...
I'm still waiting to see if I made the Uwaterloo Orchestra.
I'm still waiting for this course to get harder and more demanding
I'm still waiting for the MLP S3 release date to be announced
(On that note, I'm also waiting for the UW group to get their act together and do something)
And it seems looking forward is giving me tunnel vision, preventing me from seeing the beauty of now.
Even though I've tried to break it. I've tried to sit and enjoy the summer (almost fall)'s day, or the taste of a sweet pastry from the C&D, but I just can't find it. All I can find are the Calc problems that need solving, and the mindless and unchallenging Linear Algebra textbook that calls me. Even the Chem isn't that hard, so my mind finds no reason to pull itself together.
I don't know. I'll keep looking for something to brighten my day up. Give me a reason to smile and live each day like the last, loving the fresh moment of now rather than longing for the rewarding moment of sometime later. But until I find that I'm just gonna be here, doing things at 50%, wondering where everything started to fall apart to reverse-engineer this downness.
Saturday, 15 September 2012
One down, many more to go
Here I am. I survived the first week of University.
Well, sorta of.
I still have a flute/piccolo audition in 8 hours that I'm nowhere near ready for, and a column I've committed to write that I need to sit down and start.
Did I commit myself to too much?
...
...
Nah. I can handle it!
The first week has been very interesting, learning to live on my own. I've realized a laziness in cooking is not necessarily a bad thing. I can cook large quantities of food at one time, and then re-heat it throughout the week when I don't feel like cooking. None of this "cook yourself dinner every night" stuff, no. I don't need to worry about such menial things, I've got a plan that works!
Well. This post is turning into a jumble of ideas with no logical flow. So have some music to help transition into the next topic
Here
Because that's what I was listening to last night. Live.
We ended our first week with a Faber Drive concert right on campus!
It was ... nostalgic to say the least, because I hadn't listened to them in years. Brought back good childhood memories. Somehow our conversation while walking back transitioned from music to pokemon, so perhaps that's why my ideas are all in a jumble. Because that's what this week has been. Hundreads of things thrown at me, with no coherent order or logical progression, and I'm expected to be able to take all of them, organize them and make sense of it all.
...
Well, you can see how well that turned out
Be your own judge at how successful I was at surviving the first week. But at least I did survive, and that means I have many more days to look forward to!
Well, sorta of.
I still have a flute/piccolo audition in 8 hours that I'm nowhere near ready for, and a column I've committed to write that I need to sit down and start.
Did I commit myself to too much?
...
...
Nah. I can handle it!
The first week has been very interesting, learning to live on my own. I've realized a laziness in cooking is not necessarily a bad thing. I can cook large quantities of food at one time, and then re-heat it throughout the week when I don't feel like cooking. None of this "cook yourself dinner every night" stuff, no. I don't need to worry about such menial things, I've got a plan that works!
Well. This post is turning into a jumble of ideas with no logical flow. So have some music to help transition into the next topic
Here
Because that's what I was listening to last night. Live.
We ended our first week with a Faber Drive concert right on campus!
It was ... nostalgic to say the least, because I hadn't listened to them in years. Brought back good childhood memories. Somehow our conversation while walking back transitioned from music to pokemon, so perhaps that's why my ideas are all in a jumble. Because that's what this week has been. Hundreads of things thrown at me, with no coherent order or logical progression, and I'm expected to be able to take all of them, organize them and make sense of it all.
...
Well, you can see how well that turned out
Be your own judge at how successful I was at surviving the first week. But at least I did survive, and that means I have many more days to look forward to!
Thursday, 13 September 2012
Up to this date
Well, it's not actually the first day of University. It's more of Day 4 (not including Frosh Week). I'm a bit late to this whole blogging thing, cause I just got inspired to start by my good friend Tracy. If it's someone other than Tracy reading this blog, GO READ HERS.
So here's a quick run down of up to today's activities:
First Frosh Week
Most memorable events
The non-existent engineering event where we dug through a mud pit searching for pennies.
Too much to really try and summarize. Non-stop activities, met some new friends, hung out with old ones, fitting 41 frosh in a mini-van (where I was at the bottom), building stuff out of garbage, building a carbon nano-tube out of carbon paper (not on the nano-scale). Too much to even try and talk about
Looking Forward to:
Iron Warrior. I'm gonna be writing for the Engineering Newspaper!
UW Orchestra. Auditions are on Saturday, and I don't have my music. Luckily I'm the only piccolo player, but I still need to practice
Scared of:
CHEM. 2 course compressed into one. It's like, super accelerated. We did almost all of quantum mechanics TODAY ALONE O_O. Luckily I already knew lots from Nowikow, but it's still a lot to digest.
Enjoying the little things
Just shared half a tub of Ice-cream with my roommate Brian. We missed the free icecream because of Orchestra open rehersal, so we just went and got even better ice cream. Made us feel like the luckiest men in the world
And you know what. We kinda are.
We're blessed to be in a beautiful university, one of the greatest learning places in the world, in one of the hardest courses in the world, looking over the green trees of the Waterloo region. We have food in our bellies, knowledge in our minds, and music in our hearts. And there are always friends nearby if we want to talk to people.
Well, it's 10:51. I have a strict no staying up past 11:00 rule, due to my inability to sleep in past 7. So I'm going to be signing off for the night.
Until I write again
-Zac
So here's a quick run down of up to today's activities:
First Frosh Week
Most memorable events
The non-existent engineering event where we dug through a mud pit searching for pennies.
Too much to really try and summarize. Non-stop activities, met some new friends, hung out with old ones, fitting 41 frosh in a mini-van (where I was at the bottom), building stuff out of garbage, building a carbon nano-tube out of carbon paper (not on the nano-scale). Too much to even try and talk about
Looking Forward to:
Iron Warrior. I'm gonna be writing for the Engineering Newspaper!
UW Orchestra. Auditions are on Saturday, and I don't have my music. Luckily I'm the only piccolo player, but I still need to practice
Scared of:
CHEM. 2 course compressed into one. It's like, super accelerated. We did almost all of quantum mechanics TODAY ALONE O_O. Luckily I already knew lots from Nowikow, but it's still a lot to digest.
Enjoying the little things
Just shared half a tub of Ice-cream with my roommate Brian. We missed the free icecream because of Orchestra open rehersal, so we just went and got even better ice cream. Made us feel like the luckiest men in the world
And you know what. We kinda are.
We're blessed to be in a beautiful university, one of the greatest learning places in the world, in one of the hardest courses in the world, looking over the green trees of the Waterloo region. We have food in our bellies, knowledge in our minds, and music in our hearts. And there are always friends nearby if we want to talk to people.
Well, it's 10:51. I have a strict no staying up past 11:00 rule, due to my inability to sleep in past 7. So I'm going to be signing off for the night.
Until I write again
-Zac
Post one: All About Me
Well what better way to start this off than with a story
But this story isn't about me, oh no.
This story is about someone else
Someone who shall miss her friends dearly. Like I shall
Someone who is only herself because of them. Like I am
Someone who is embarking upon an experience in her life that will never exist again. Like I am.
Well, enough leading into it. Here's basically everything you need to know about me in one short story not about me:
Departure
And if you didn't get enough information about me from the above story, here's it stated explicitly.
First and foremost: I write stories
Secondly: These stories are often about talking horses. AKA My Little Pony Fanfiction.
For those that find it weird - it's an amazing show that's inspirational, motivational, and hilarious. It's worth watching, give it a shot.
One thing you should know about me: I don't do something unless it's worth the time I put into it. That's why I stopped playing most Video Games (I know, a university guy that doesn't play games) and stopped watching most TV. The time could be better used elsewhere.
I'm also one who cares very little for social conventions. I'm not going to do something because people say it's cool, or because everyone else does; I'm only going to do something if it's worth the time I put into it.
Back from that aside to the real topic
The third thing you might have gotten from it (because it was stated explicitly) is that I'm embarking upon my university journey. I've been accepted, I've moved into Res, and I've already had some amazing times during my first week. So now I'm going to start writing about it; not so it can be read by others, but so I can sit down and think about the great times I've had, and enjoy it more thoroughly. Then again, that's also why I write stories. That being said, if you want to read what I write I'd be more than glad for the comments and thoughts.
Well, that's enough about me. Or is it? Well, even if it's not I'm sure that many more things about me will come out in this blog. Consider it a gradual character development over time, so you'll always be wondering how the character is going to develop next.
Until my next post (in about 5 minutes, or however long it takes me to write it)
- Zac
But this story isn't about me, oh no.
This story is about someone else
Someone who shall miss her friends dearly. Like I shall
Someone who is only herself because of them. Like I am
Someone who is embarking upon an experience in her life that will never exist again. Like I am.
Well, enough leading into it. Here's basically everything you need to know about me in one short story not about me:
Departure
And if you didn't get enough information about me from the above story, here's it stated explicitly.
First and foremost: I write stories
Secondly: These stories are often about talking horses. AKA My Little Pony Fanfiction.
For those that find it weird - it's an amazing show that's inspirational, motivational, and hilarious. It's worth watching, give it a shot.
One thing you should know about me: I don't do something unless it's worth the time I put into it. That's why I stopped playing most Video Games (I know, a university guy that doesn't play games) and stopped watching most TV. The time could be better used elsewhere.
I'm also one who cares very little for social conventions. I'm not going to do something because people say it's cool, or because everyone else does; I'm only going to do something if it's worth the time I put into it.
Back from that aside to the real topic
The third thing you might have gotten from it (because it was stated explicitly) is that I'm embarking upon my university journey. I've been accepted, I've moved into Res, and I've already had some amazing times during my first week. So now I'm going to start writing about it; not so it can be read by others, but so I can sit down and think about the great times I've had, and enjoy it more thoroughly. Then again, that's also why I write stories. That being said, if you want to read what I write I'd be more than glad for the comments and thoughts.
Well, that's enough about me. Or is it? Well, even if it's not I'm sure that many more things about me will come out in this blog. Consider it a gradual character development over time, so you'll always be wondering how the character is going to develop next.
Until my next post (in about 5 minutes, or however long it takes me to write it)
- Zac
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